ahhh (sigh not yell)
Well, time flies these days. You don't even have to be having fun. I have had some fun, but I have also had sadness. The holiday season. . .as much as I wait for it all year long, it gets here and I feel like I am trying to pick up a greased pig. I want to cherish every moment and put it in my brain so that I can return to it when life is down in the dumps, but instead it is messy and fast.
Thanksgiving was delightful, going home is a real paradise to me. Unfortunately I fell fast from cloud nine when, before I had even reached the freeway for my journey back to L.A., I found out my Uncle Freddy had passed away (my Aunt Hilda's husband). Not but two days later the news that my Aunt Penny had died reached me as I was rushing to go to school. I am okay with death, as okay as anyone can be, I guess, but. . .it is sad. I am going to miss my Aunt a lot. She was my buddy. Christmas for my family this year is going to be heavy.
I know dealing with loss is a process, and for that I am thankful, because as I am finding out about my Uncle and Aunt I am packing for a trip to New York to see my Best Friend Ali G.
* I had morbid thoughts as I got on the plane to fly out, thinking, "It would be so ironic that this plane would crash knowing all the loss my family was dealing with at the time".*
With my families blessings I flew to N.Y. knowing I was going to miss my Aunt Penny's funeral, (we decided she would have wanted me to go to N.Y.). Time there was so sweet. Alison is really a remarkable friend in the sense that I could not be more comfortable with a person as I am with her. She is like a sister, really. We went to a super fancy club that is like every other super fancy club, by super fancy I mean totally LAME. I saw it snow in New York just like Law and Order. My dad treated us to a nice dinner at Tao. Lame clubs, snow, dinners, they are all best with a great friend. I think I would have ended up there if Al had moved there straight out of college, but that makes me sad to think of because then I wouldn't have become friends with all my friends I have made since college, and they are good.
When I got back from N.Y. I hit the ground running. The band had a show the day after I landed, cheer, work, musical tryouts, and parties will fill my days until I go home to Phoenix on the 20th. It is then that I plan to return to my original plan of soaking up the holidays' good vibe and store it in my brain. Oh and tomorrow I will start exercising.
Thanksgiving was delightful, going home is a real paradise to me. Unfortunately I fell fast from cloud nine when, before I had even reached the freeway for my journey back to L.A., I found out my Uncle Freddy had passed away (my Aunt Hilda's husband). Not but two days later the news that my Aunt Penny had died reached me as I was rushing to go to school. I am okay with death, as okay as anyone can be, I guess, but. . .it is sad. I am going to miss my Aunt a lot. She was my buddy. Christmas for my family this year is going to be heavy.
I know dealing with loss is a process, and for that I am thankful, because as I am finding out about my Uncle and Aunt I am packing for a trip to New York to see my Best Friend Ali G.
* I had morbid thoughts as I got on the plane to fly out, thinking, "It would be so ironic that this plane would crash knowing all the loss my family was dealing with at the time".*
With my families blessings I flew to N.Y. knowing I was going to miss my Aunt Penny's funeral, (we decided she would have wanted me to go to N.Y.). Time there was so sweet. Alison is really a remarkable friend in the sense that I could not be more comfortable with a person as I am with her. She is like a sister, really. We went to a super fancy club that is like every other super fancy club, by super fancy I mean totally LAME. I saw it snow in New York just like Law and Order. My dad treated us to a nice dinner at Tao. Lame clubs, snow, dinners, they are all best with a great friend. I think I would have ended up there if Al had moved there straight out of college, but that makes me sad to think of because then I wouldn't have become friends with all my friends I have made since college, and they are good.
When I got back from N.Y. I hit the ground running. The band had a show the day after I landed, cheer, work, musical tryouts, and parties will fill my days until I go home to Phoenix on the 20th. It is then that I plan to return to my original plan of soaking up the holidays' good vibe and store it in my brain. Oh and tomorrow I will start exercising.
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